Uncommon

Being uncommon comes with a price.  Usually at our own expense we strive to be anything but uncommon.  Here is why.  Some of the more common definitions and synonyms for uncommon are: odd, strange, peculiar, queer and unusual.  Most folks avoid being any of those things at any cost.  But dig a little deeper and you will find that some others are: above the ordinary, exceptional, remarkable, extraordinary & outstanding.  Are you willing to be uncommon?

Character building was a large motivation behind our decision to homeschool.  I am bold enough to speculate that integrity and character have become lost virtues.  Children are constantly bombarded with subject matter that is beyond their maturity.  Things they shouldn't see, words they shouldn't hear.  Purity is lost, and never will it return.  You cannot unsee things, you cannot unhear, but you can become desensitized and oblivious.  Homeschooling was never merely about education, Aristotle said it like this,
Educating the mind without educating the heart is no education at all.

How do children discover who they are?  I have oft wondered....who am I?  There have been times in my life when I thought I had it all figured out.  But in the pursuit of perfection I have often ended up lost, disillusioned.  Getting caught up in what I should appear to be....  Afraid that who I was, wasn't good enough, smart enough, cool enough...that I would appear odd or strange.  But my revelation, my truth is packaged perfectly in one of Cecil Murphy's aphorisms; I'd rather be disliked for who I am than to be admired for who I'm not.  Be me, no illusions, no fronts, just me.  I'm working on this.  Being confident, bold, decisive, diligent.  Uncommon and unafraid of what others think.  I know that if anyone sees through a false exterior it is those we most love, our children, our husband.  Am I who I want them to be?  Again, I am working on it :)

My desire for my children is for them to understand from a young age what character is.  Not just how it is defined on a page, but how it is applied in life.  I have borrowed an amazing resource from the Duggar family, the operational definitions of character qualities .  We spend a lot of time discussing different character qualities, learning what they mean, giving examples, practicing them in our lives.  We have designated a cabinet in our kitchen "the character cabinet", last fall we cut out colorful fall leaves and each time one of the children displayed a positive character quality they received a leaf with their name and the quality written for everyone to see.  Obedience, forgiveness, flexibility, creativity, patience, self-control adorned the door.  Badges of character, a visible reminder of the good in them.  As the children learn the definitions, understand certain qualities and the expectations associated with the word it is easy to not only point out when they display them, but also when they don't. 

For example we have been working on obedience all year (likely will for the next 10!).  But when I feel someone has been disobedient I simply say, "what is obedience?"  and the immediate response is this "quickly, cheerfully, thoroughly".  They understand the expectation, they understand their shortfall, and no lecture is needed (usually). 

Confidence is key as well.  Being grounded in who they are.  It took me too many years to realize that who I am, is a child of God.  Enough said.  He knows every hair on my head and every care in my heart.  He has great plans for me and he patiently continues to perfect the work he has begun.  Thank you Lord for patience!  My prayer is for my children to put the pieces together at an early age.  To trust the Lord to direct their paths and for them to find joy in serving Him.  Life is not without obstacles and I have never been naive enough to believe that we won't stumble.  But I know they will find security in their faith by structuring their lives around that which is eternal and cannot be destroyed or taken away.  John 6:27.

"In the end, character is the blend of inner courage, wisdom, and a sense of duty to yourself, to others, and to something greater than you.  In a common world, becoming an uncommon man begins by cultivating uncommon character."  Tony Dungee, Uncommon. 

More Than Our Bad Days

It has been a rough week for the chaos crew.  Camaraderie, flexibility, diligence, teamwork...these are not words I would use to describe us this week.  Everyone seems to be surly and stubborn.  I was sure that as we welcomed the bright sun and extended outdoor play that the crabby, fidgety, whiney behavior would subside.  Not so.  Frown.  :(  Instead the desire to go outside and suck in nature has been replaced with the desire to never come back inside!  This new desire makes accomplishing the tasks of the day a bit of a challenge!  I am thrilled that my children love to be outdoors, but I didn't anticipate the strain it would put on our school day. 

In addition, the attitudes being displayed toward one another are down right terrible.  It is defeating for mama.  I have spent a great deal of time this year working on character.  So much has been accomplished, I am proud of my children and who they are.  But when things are bad, when attitudes are poor and moral is low, I take it personally.  Their behavior is a reflection of my performance....isn't it?

Matt always calls at lunchtime.  Today he may wish he hadn't.  The first sound he heard was the wailing cry of Thomas in the background who had been unhappy for 90% of his awake existence that day.  Tyler and Alli were picking at each other (in lieu of doing their schoolwork), Merik (daycare child) was insisting we not have green beans with lunch while Anna begged for chocolate milk, and lunch was fifteen minutes behind.  My van was in the shop and the cell phone guy was minutes away from arriving to my disaster zone house to switch my phone out for me.  (add that to the definition of chaos Mr. Webster)  As I relayed the turmoil my lovely man had the foresight to remind me, "Sarah, they are just kids, they are going to have bad days, just chill out and remember how great they are when they are behaving!"

"hmmm"

They are great kids.   I have bad days, display behavior I am not proud of (more than I care to admit) and the truth is, those days don't define me.  So back to my song obsession, I love the lyrics to You Are More by Tenth Avenue North
You are more than the choices that you make
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes
You are more than the problems you create
You've been remade
(That's from memory) so don't hold me to the words, but take a listen here: http://www.klove.com/music/artists/tenth-avenue-north/songs/you-are-more-lyrics.aspx

My dear, dear friend is raising a brood of boys.  She uses the analogy of a tree with their families parenting.  Often saying that she is raising good strong trees, with deep roots and strong branches.  I love this, the roots are what we plant at home, the deeper we dig, the more we water, the stronger the tree will stand in the storms.  The branches are who they are...the paths they will take, the talents they will pursue, the people they will touch, again, with strong roots these branches may bend and sway in the wind, but they will not break, they will remain strong.  They will produce much fruit, for His names sake. 

A favorite saying of mine



So on windy days, when we are bent and swayed to do the wrong thing, to make the wrong choice, I am reminded of the tree analogy.  And of my husband's wisdom.  They are just kids, they are still growing.  And although I may wish to take one of those little branches and pull it back and let it swing back to strike a little hinney, haha, joking.  They are not defined by the bad days, but by what is being planted and watered and grown in their souls.

We will muscle through the last month of school, enjoying the outside as an incentive.  Using bad behavior as an example of what not to do, and praying, praying, praying for sanity and patience!  (for us all)  All the while, thanking God for his grace, patience, and forgiveness in my own life.  Never forsaking me, despite all my baggage, all my mistakes, all my bad choices.  What a perfect love.

So go water some trees :)  and enjoy watching them grow. 

The photo is borrowed from my friend's blog (without permission) heehee.  Please take a look at her wonderful tales of mothering five amazing boys on her blog My Five Sons.  http://www.shawnellewrites.blogspot.com/

On the Same Frequency

I am in awe of the way that we are all created so unique, yet we occassionally run across others who ride the same wave in this life.  Through the years I have been blessed with amazing friends.  Friends whom God has placed in my life at the perfect time, for the perfect reasons. 

Have you ever been certain that you have conceived the same thought as someone at the exact same time, or actually said the same thing at the same moment?  Or have you thought of someone, "out of the blue" only to get a note or a call from them the next day?  Coincidence?  Nah, not if you ask me. 

My friend Nikki and I literally creep each other out, because these "coincidences" happen ALL the time.  One time we both said the word smurf at the same time...I hadn't seen a smurf since I was six, but somehow one day while joking around at work we both blurted it out!  I know that is a weird example, but it is a true story I promise! 

Other times with her and other friends I have had a particular person pop in my head.  Out of nowhere I will get a call from them!  Or I will call them and they will say, "wierd, I was just thinking of you!"  I used to brush these strange encounters off as coincidences myself, but the more I learn about the Lord and the Holy Spirit, the more I am aware of God using me, prompting me.

It has happened before that I have had a person enter my mind and thought, hmmmm, I should send them a note, or give a quick call.  Then the chaos of life interupts and I don't do it.  Days later when I actually get to the action, I find that they had a really bad day the other day, the day I was prompted to check in.  The day I was distracted, or simply too busy to listen.  The day that I could have helped....the one that had already passed. 

Often I am blessed to be on the reciprocating end.  Recieving a note, a call, an email, a blog comment, just at the right time.  Just when I am feeling down, just when I could use some light in my day.  I am so grateful for my friends who surf with me.  I am so thankful that God uses us to shed light, that when we are willing to not only listen, but to take action, we can brighten a day. 

To my amazing friends, the ones I talk to regualarly, the ones I only talk to every so often, the ones I don't see for this or that reason, the ones who I am blessed to see all the time, the ones whom I have never met in person.  Thank you for listening to my frequency and being on my chapter in the book, sometimes the same line of the same page, thank you for who you are, what you have done for me, and for always being there.  Thank you for accountability, encouragement, tough love, for laughs and tears, for shoulders and for reminding me to count my blessings.  You each have repeatedly listened and acted just when I need you. 

I encourage you today, don't ignore the promptings in your life.  Let God use you. I am also reminded that we are often prompted to show kindness to strangers, so go ahead and change someone's life today.  What do you have to lose?

Chaos Machine

So, I have decided that my Thomas is a chaos machine.  He is programmed to quickly and efficiently cause mass destruction, and chaos. 

Yesterday the chaos machine followed the below protocol:
  Eat one half bowl of oatmeal, fling remaining oatmeal at sister = cleaning mother
  Removing PJ's and diaper and chasing siblings while naked = disgusted shrieks and a puddle of piddle
  Use orange crayon to "draw" on Alli's math assignment = screaming sister
  Disassemble prized bionicle while on rouge mission in brother's room = raging brother
  Practice MMA on the ruff (kitty) (confused I know) = screeching mach speed cat retreat
  Reaching on kitchen counter to get a drink from sissy's cup = hair styled with apple juice & new outfit
  Running around living room with laundry hamper on head = hilarious photo ops
  Running around living room with laundry hamper on head = stacks of folded laundry...unfolded
  Stacks of folded laundry...unfolded = unhappy mama
  Exploratory mission under the couch = toddler chewing on AA battery
  Toddler chewing on AA battery = panicked daddy frantickly washing out mouth
  Toddler chewing on AA battery = toddler sleeping in parent's bed...at dad's insistance
  Toddler sleeping in bed = interupted sleep for mama and daddy, and a machine with a charged battery!

  Thomas the chaos machine = parents finding joy in the life of a healthy (though exhausting) child! 
I'd love to hear about your chaos machines too!  Such joy comes from knowing we are not alone!! 

Just a Mom

I love the warming weather, the opportunity to get out and breath in deep.  To open the windows wide and air out the stagnant winter air.  I spent a recent evening walking with some friends, discussing the ins and outs of the day when our topic turned to raising girls.  The three of us, have eleven children collectively.  Each with a mix of boys and girls. 

"Obviously boys and girls are different, but the way God hard-wired us with certain attributes is amazing!" one friend commented.

"I never had to teach my daughter to snuggle and care for her dollies, or my son to vrrroomm his trucks and love throwing balls".  added the other.

The next question traipses around in my brain regularly, guarded against the worldview, against my own insecurities, I keep it hidden.  But wrapped in the security of friends who love me, I ask.
"Is it wrong to encourage my daughters to be just moms?  If asked what they want to be when they grow up
their answers are clear and concise."

"I want to be a mommy."

I always wanted to be a mommy too.  There was never a shred of my existence that didn't know I would have children.  I always had a picture of a family.  But in our society, in our generation, this answer was juvenile and incomplete.  The rebuttal question was generally, "Well yes, but what else do you want to be?"  As if shaping the future generation was not an important enough job.  The world wants you to have status, letters behind our names, six-figure incomes...those are prizes deemed worthy of our efforts.  But just a mom, a simple housewife?  It's a lost art, it lacks ambition, it's a lazy escape, so they say. 

So, my pretty leather bound diploma was acquired.  I worked hard, I put in the hours, I worked my way up the ladder.  Blood, sweat and tears went into my degree.   Long nights, early mornings and frazzled nerves.  Six years, countless papers, quizzes, tests, experiments, hundreds of stalls mucked, horses fed, one wedding, one baby, and one thesis later I was a Master of Animal Science. 

Tyler hanging out at the barn

Year one post graduation, I moved my tiny family to Kansas.  The dream job.  Director of Horse Production at a small community college.  I had attained the dream.  Here lies the problem.  The dream wasn't the job.  The dream was the tiny family.  So the 24/7 responsibilities of being a horse farm manager, writing new curriculum, managing all my students, and being a mom....it wasn't working for me.  After all....all I ever wanted, was to be "just" a mom. 

My pretty little diploma adorns the third shelf of my china cabinet, tucked under a pie plate and some random birthday party supplies. 

My college days were an amazing time in mine and Matt's lives.  But looking back, I really think I learned more about how to be a mom, than I did about how to be a scientist.  Partly from the fact that I met my best friend and the best mom in the world there, Shanna.  And partly because I learned that what I was learning really doesn't matter in the big picture.   

 

  

I haven't ridden on or even touched a horse in nearly three years.  I still get all rubber-necked when we pass a horse farm, but more because I appreciate the beauty of God's creation than a longing for what once was.  Today the blood, sweat and tears, the long nights, early mornings and frazzled nerves are going into a product that will surpass this lifetime.  A small herd of God-loving, God-fearing believers who will shed light in dark places and continue a legacy that will strengthen with each generation. 

I've answered my own question.  "Yes it is okay"  I will be a cheerleader for my children no matter what.  But I will also always remind them to cling to their instincts, and focus on the bigger picture.  To hear God's voice and follow His will for their lives, and ultimately, to serve Him and serve others.  Only time will tell what this will look like, but today, I will teach them to cook and clean, to mend and organize, to love and laugh, and enjoy!



Me & Shanna